It's 4:30 in the morning, I've yet to go to sleep & I've just finished watching When Harry Met Sally, it never gets old. Ever. Every time I watch it, it's like falling in love all over again. It makes me love, love, I smile through the whole movie & no, I'm not ashamed. Billy Crystal is one charming motherfucker.

My point is, it makes me think icky thoughts that I don't want to be thinking, I have a best friend, exactly like Harry, Mike is his name. He's a total dweeb & i never lay off him. But our friendship is so close no one could pull us apart, we call each other late at night just to watch the Nanny together & not even talk, just waste minutes away making stupid remarks about sitcoms. My point is, Mike & i used to go out when we first met, but it only lasted a week because it was too awkward & I rather be friends with him, & he we are. Best of friends. no pressure at all, I can be my complete self around him. I don't have to look pretty or act interested when I'm around him & I love it, but I find it very true that & man & woman cannot be friends.

I'm not saying there's a tension between me & him, & I'm sure I'm not thinking about it, but what about him? is there some cloud lingering over our heads that I'm not aware about? I never ever want to date that ugly boy, ever. But yet we plan our live's together, we're going to get married & have kids & just do things, but sex & romance never come up, which is amazing but I just don't want us to develop even more, of course its not but if we grow older & are still friends you never know.

I guess I'm just scared of change, even though things won't be changing anytime soon. I love my man (You know who you are xxx) no matter what, with all my heart. He's my prince x. but I'm just nervous to think of things happening between Michael & me. it's ridiculous really, but I never want to destroy the friendship that we have, ever. Even though in the movie things worked out greatly...

& please, I swear to god. I will kill whichever motherfucker decides to tell me about love. i mean it. I mean it. i fucking mean it, I do not appreciate comments giving me "advice" because I'm not looking for it. Thankyou.

Instead, I want to hear about you. Whats one (or two (;) little things in life that make you smile, or just make life a little more enjoyable to you.

I like how twinkie packages always have two in them so you can share..which I never do. But it still makes me smile. (: xxx